I've moved to Sophisticated Me. See You There.

It comes to a point where i hate myself from head to toe, inside out.

i hate myself.

Say those words to me everyday.

I love this song.


Kim Ji Young - 여자는그래요 (A woman like that) All About Marriage OST

I shed tears even if I smile, I'm alone and feeling lonely
I can't love anybody and I live everyday
Yesterday I cried a lot, today I can't breathe
Tomorrow, it would not be hurt rather than now
My makeup increasingly gets thicker
I often change my hairstyle
I'm afraid these poor memories come
Erase my appearance I knew before

Yes, I'm a woman who knows only about love
Even if it's lie, I would want to believe in it
The happy times we were together
It hurts, though it hurts, I loved
the traces I can't throw away
Yes, I'm a woman like a fool, love is all therefore
I'd want to get it more than anything
From me, you who went away
I hate, though I hate you, come back , I can't forget and
This woman is waiting

Pretend to be busy even if there's nothing to do
Deliberately live like that in the crowd
I'm afraid these broken memories wake up
I spend another day crazily again

Yes, I'm a woman who knows only about love
Even if it's lie, I would want to believe in it
The happy times we were together
It hurts, though it hurts, I loved
the traces I can't throw away
Yes, I'm a woman like a fool, love is all therefore
I'd want to get it more than anything
From me, you who went away
I hate, though I hate you, come back , I can't forget and
This woman is waiting

I hope you had a great time yesterday. I'm sorry for I have no money to bring you to any fancy restaurant to have a romantic dinner or buy you a fancy gift. I hope you like the cookie cake though, a small present, but sadly that was never get tasted!. =( Still, we can buy them again. =)

I watch Krakatua documentary earlier on. It was a grief-stricken moment. People were dying. People were washed away by the huge tsunami. People were burnt to death by the volcanic ashes.

Imagine, you and your family were there, not knowing that death was just beside you. You were having fun, playing with your family, teasing your friends, when suddenly you heard a loud explosion and you saw a thick dark grey smoke coming out from the mountain, not knowing what it was.

Within a second, darkness surround you. People were running frantically. The mountain keep on producing huge amount of thick dark grey smoke. It was a total chaos. Then, a loud roar. It sounds like a wave charging like an angry lion. A tsunami of height 4 meters came crashing down and wiping away all those that hinders its way. But how far can you go?. Either you tied yourself to a rope or go to a building made of bricks to the second floor. But, in the 1880s, there were no building made of bricks.

Even if you survive, how are you going to survive? Food were scarce. The crops that the villagers grew were destroyed, water was either limited or contaminated. Smoke fill your lungs more than oxygen. You might find yourself alone.

When you thought all was clear, suddenly people were screaming to take shelter. In a few seconds, a wave of ashes were charging and destroying the crops, trees, houses and even burning the people. Those, who were unable to seek shelter died instantly and those who were in the shelter came out with a second or first degree burnt on their bodies.

It was an eerie silent. Everyone was walking like a zombie, finding their love ones, moving on to find somewhere safe. Imagine, these are what the victims of natural disaster have to go through? Its a disaster where we human are unable to stop it and avoid them.

Whereas in other parts of the country, wars are going on, where people can actually avoid them and stop them. Its human doing that devastated civilisation. In the end the people are the one who suffered, not the government nor the politicians. A simple example will be war in Iraq. Look at what was destroyed.

There are other parts of the country, where people are enjoying, partying, living in luxury and yet complaining that they are still lacking of good food, good entertainment, etc.

It was terrible for Indonesian people. They fear for their own life and their family life. Danger lurks behind them. Anytime, they will meet with death. Because, Indonesia was part of the ring of fire.

So lets all pray for the people. For those whose lives were lost, for their families and their well-being. I thank Allah, for I lived in Singapore and keep us safe.

I've moved to Sophisticated Me. See You There.

It comes to a point where i hate myself from head to toe, inside out.

i hate myself.

Say those words to me everyday.

I love this song.


Kim Ji Young - 여자는그래요 (A woman like that) All About Marriage OST

I shed tears even if I smile, I'm alone and feeling lonely
I can't love anybody and I live everyday
Yesterday I cried a lot, today I can't breathe
Tomorrow, it would not be hurt rather than now
My makeup increasingly gets thicker
I often change my hairstyle
I'm afraid these poor memories come
Erase my appearance I knew before

Yes, I'm a woman who knows only about love
Even if it's lie, I would want to believe in it
The happy times we were together
It hurts, though it hurts, I loved
the traces I can't throw away
Yes, I'm a woman like a fool, love is all therefore
I'd want to get it more than anything
From me, you who went away
I hate, though I hate you, come back , I can't forget and
This woman is waiting

Pretend to be busy even if there's nothing to do
Deliberately live like that in the crowd
I'm afraid these broken memories wake up
I spend another day crazily again

Yes, I'm a woman who knows only about love
Even if it's lie, I would want to believe in it
The happy times we were together
It hurts, though it hurts, I loved
the traces I can't throw away
Yes, I'm a woman like a fool, love is all therefore
I'd want to get it more than anything
From me, you who went away
I hate, though I hate you, come back , I can't forget and
This woman is waiting

I hope you had a great time yesterday. I'm sorry for I have no money to bring you to any fancy restaurant to have a romantic dinner or buy you a fancy gift. I hope you like the cookie cake though, a small present, but sadly that was never get tasted!. =( Still, we can buy them again. =)

I watch Krakatua documentary earlier on. It was a grief-stricken moment. People were dying. People were washed away by the huge tsunami. People were burnt to death by the volcanic ashes.

Imagine, you and your family were there, not knowing that death was just beside you. You were having fun, playing with your family, teasing your friends, when suddenly you heard a loud explosion and you saw a thick dark grey smoke coming out from the mountain, not knowing what it was.

Within a second, darkness surround you. People were running frantically. The mountain keep on producing huge amount of thick dark grey smoke. It was a total chaos. Then, a loud roar. It sounds like a wave charging like an angry lion. A tsunami of height 4 meters came crashing down and wiping away all those that hinders its way. But how far can you go?. Either you tied yourself to a rope or go to a building made of bricks to the second floor. But, in the 1880s, there were no building made of bricks.

Even if you survive, how are you going to survive? Food were scarce. The crops that the villagers grew were destroyed, water was either limited or contaminated. Smoke fill your lungs more than oxygen. You might find yourself alone.

When you thought all was clear, suddenly people were screaming to take shelter. In a few seconds, a wave of ashes were charging and destroying the crops, trees, houses and even burning the people. Those, who were unable to seek shelter died instantly and those who were in the shelter came out with a second or first degree burnt on their bodies.

It was an eerie silent. Everyone was walking like a zombie, finding their love ones, moving on to find somewhere safe. Imagine, these are what the victims of natural disaster have to go through? Its a disaster where we human are unable to stop it and avoid them.

Whereas in other parts of the country, wars are going on, where people can actually avoid them and stop them. Its human doing that devastated civilisation. In the end the people are the one who suffered, not the government nor the politicians. A simple example will be war in Iraq. Look at what was destroyed.

There are other parts of the country, where people are enjoying, partying, living in luxury and yet complaining that they are still lacking of good food, good entertainment, etc.

It was terrible for Indonesian people. They fear for their own life and their family life. Danger lurks behind them. Anytime, they will meet with death. Because, Indonesia was part of the ring of fire.

So lets all pray for the people. For those whose lives were lost, for their families and their well-being. I thank Allah, for I lived in Singapore and keep us safe.